SmurF bLoged oN Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Habang tinitingnan ko ang larawan na ito nung isang gabi, di ko mapigilan ang sarili kong pagmasdan ang masasayang ngiti na kumikislap sa labi ng bawat isa, ang mga matang puno ng pagaasa at determinasyon sa hinaharap, at ang pagsasamahan na kahit di nakikita ng mata ay nararamdaman naman ng puso. Di ko labis maiisip na sa halos tatlong buwan ay kailangan nating magpaalam sa isa’t isa upang tumahak ng bagong landas. May mga ngiti pa kayang makikita? Aasa pa kaya? Sadyang limot na lamang ba ang patutunguhan ng mga alaala?
Noong ako ay nasa unang baitang pa lamang, laking gulat ko nang isang matanda ang biglang nagtanong sa akin
“Anong grade mo na”
Laking pagmamalaki ko namang sinabi
“Grade one pa lamang po”
“Ay, matagal ka pa ah dito” sagot ng matanda
Sa mga salitang binigkas niya, kahit sa murang edad kong iyon, ay labis parin ang pagaalalang lumagos sa aking isipan. Na halos tatlong libong araw pa ang kakailanganin kong gumising ng maaga para pumasok, na wala na ang mga gabing kompletong tulog ang asam, at na tunay nga na matagal pa ang pamamalagi ko sa lugar na kinikilala ko pa lamang.
At ngayon na natapos ko na ang elementarya, kilalang kilala ko na ang aking paatalan , magtatapos na rin ako ng sekondarya, at bagong kabanata na naman ang kailangang harapin, di ako makapaniwala na parang sa isang kisap-mata lamang dumaan ang lahat.
At sa sborang bilis ay nakatayo ako ngayon sa harap nyo na nagsisi. Hindi dahil sa marami akong kasalanan sa inyo, ngunit siguro ay bahagi na rin yun, kundi dahil pinalipas ko ang mga panahong magkakasama tayo na hindi sa pinakamaiinam na aking makakaya. At kinakatakutan ko na marahil ay kaunting oras na lamang ang nailaan upang ito’y ayusin.
Ganun pa man, ako ay nagsisisi dahil marami pa akong ginugustong gawin at sabihin. Gusto ko pang lasapin ang mga panahong nagtatawanan tayong lahat. Gusto ko pang makipagkwentuhan ng “nonstop” sa inyo. Gusto ko pang magsabi ng mga problema sa inyo na kahit mababaw o grabe ay natutulungan nyo parin itong mabigyan solusyon. Gusto ko pang ibahagi sa inyo ang mga “love stories” ko mapapantasya man o sa katotohanan. Gusto ko pang makipagkulitan sa inyo, na kahit nasa puntong umaabuso na ako ay di parin kayo nagagalit.
Ako rin ay nagsisi dahil ngaun ko lang naisipang makipagkaibigan sa iba. Na kung noon ko pa sana ginawa ay mas maaga ang pagkaka kilala ko sa kapuna punang mga tao kagaya nyo. Na kung noon ko pa ginawa ay mas makilala ko pa sana kayo ng mabuti. Na kung noon ko pa sana ginawa ay siguro mas matibay ang pagkakaibigan nating nabuo.
Nagsisi ako dahil hindi ako naging mabuting kaibigan na aking inaasahan. Habang walang kibo ang pakikitungo ko sa inyo ay araw araw na saya at suporta naman ang kapalit. Habang maraming away na ang naidudulot ng aking malaking bunganga ay ni minsan di ko kayo narinig na tutol o sisi mula sa inyo. Habang heto ako hirap na hirap na mag bukas ng puso sa mga kabutihang handog nyo ay narayan parin kayo…mga maituturing na pinakamabuting kaibigan sa mundo.
At ang pinagsisihan ko sa lahat ay ang di sapat na pagpapaabot ko sa inyo ng pasasalamat at pagmamahal. At habang nabigyan na rin nang pagkakataaon upang gawin ito, maraming salamat sa lahat, Maraming Salamat, sa pagmamahal at saya na walang sawang binahagi niyo sa akin.
Ngunit kahit mga pagsisisi na ang mga binabanggit ko sa harap niyo ay pagtanggap parin ang handog niyo. Sa simpleng ngiti at pagmamalasakit na natatanggap ko, ang mga pagsisi ay nagiging pampapalakas ng aking loob upang patuloy na mamuhay, umasa at mangarap. At kahit marami akong pinagsisihan sa mga nangyari sa aking ikalawang tahanang tinuturing, ako parin ay tunay na pinagpala dahil nakasama ko kayo sa paglalakbay na ito.
Pagbalik sa katotohanang kailangan ngang mawalay sa isa’t isa, wala na akong kinakakabahan pa dahil alam ko na di kukupas ang ngiti at saya, ang pagaasa ay hinding hindi mawawala at ang mga alaala ay habang buhay na makikintal sa alaala.
Marami pa sana akong gustong sabihin ngunit nahihirapan akong hanapin ang tamang mga salita upang ilarawan ang nais kong ilahad, kaya’t naghanda ako ng isang simpleng presentasyon. Ani nga nila “A picture is worth a thousand words” Sana’y magustuhan niyo ito at sana sa paraang ito mailahad na ang lahat ng ninanais ko na madakma niyo.
(Power point)
Estimated time: 8 minutes
“At the Beginning and I will Remember You
Noong ako ay nasa unang baitang pa lamang, laking gulat ko nang isang matanda ang biglang nagtanong sa akin
“Anong grade mo na”
Laking pagmamalaki ko namang sinabi
“Grade one pa lamang po”
“Ay, matagal ka pa ah dito” sagot ng matanda
Sa mga salitang binigkas niya, kahit sa murang edad kong iyon, ay labis parin ang pagaalalang lumagos sa aking isipan. Na halos tatlong libong araw pa ang kakailanganin kong gumising ng maaga para pumasok, na wala na ang mga gabing kompletong tulog ang asam, at na tunay nga na matagal pa ang pamamalagi ko sa lugar na kinikilala ko pa lamang.
At ngayon na natapos ko na ang elementarya, kilalang kilala ko na ang aking paatalan , magtatapos na rin ako ng sekondarya, at bagong kabanata na naman ang kailangang harapin, di ako makapaniwala na parang sa isang kisap-mata lamang dumaan ang lahat.
At sa sborang bilis ay nakatayo ako ngayon sa harap nyo na nagsisi. Hindi dahil sa marami akong kasalanan sa inyo, ngunit siguro ay bahagi na rin yun, kundi dahil pinalipas ko ang mga panahong magkakasama tayo na hindi sa pinakamaiinam na aking makakaya. At kinakatakutan ko na marahil ay kaunting oras na lamang ang nailaan upang ito’y ayusin.
Ganun pa man, ako ay nagsisisi dahil marami pa akong ginugustong gawin at sabihin. Gusto ko pang lasapin ang mga panahong nagtatawanan tayong lahat. Gusto ko pang makipagkwentuhan ng “nonstop” sa inyo. Gusto ko pang magsabi ng mga problema sa inyo na kahit mababaw o grabe ay natutulungan nyo parin itong mabigyan solusyon. Gusto ko pang ibahagi sa inyo ang mga “love stories” ko mapapantasya man o sa katotohanan. Gusto ko pang makipagkulitan sa inyo, na kahit nasa puntong umaabuso na ako ay di parin kayo nagagalit.
Ako rin ay nagsisi dahil ngaun ko lang naisipang makipagkaibigan sa iba. Na kung noon ko pa sana ginawa ay mas maaga ang pagkaka kilala ko sa kapuna punang mga tao kagaya nyo. Na kung noon ko pa ginawa ay mas makilala ko pa sana kayo ng mabuti. Na kung noon ko pa sana ginawa ay siguro mas matibay ang pagkakaibigan nating nabuo.
Nagsisi ako dahil hindi ako naging mabuting kaibigan na aking inaasahan. Habang walang kibo ang pakikitungo ko sa inyo ay araw araw na saya at suporta naman ang kapalit. Habang maraming away na ang naidudulot ng aking malaking bunganga ay ni minsan di ko kayo narinig na tutol o sisi mula sa inyo. Habang heto ako hirap na hirap na mag bukas ng puso sa mga kabutihang handog nyo ay narayan parin kayo…mga maituturing na pinakamabuting kaibigan sa mundo.
At ang pinagsisihan ko sa lahat ay ang di sapat na pagpapaabot ko sa inyo ng pasasalamat at pagmamahal. At habang nabigyan na rin nang pagkakataaon upang gawin ito, maraming salamat sa lahat, Maraming Salamat, sa pagmamahal at saya na walang sawang binahagi niyo sa akin.
Ngunit kahit mga pagsisisi na ang mga binabanggit ko sa harap niyo ay pagtanggap parin ang handog niyo. Sa simpleng ngiti at pagmamalasakit na natatanggap ko, ang mga pagsisi ay nagiging pampapalakas ng aking loob upang patuloy na mamuhay, umasa at mangarap. At kahit marami akong pinagsisihan sa mga nangyari sa aking ikalawang tahanang tinuturing, ako parin ay tunay na pinagpala dahil nakasama ko kayo sa paglalakbay na ito.
Pagbalik sa katotohanang kailangan ngang mawalay sa isa’t isa, wala na akong kinakakabahan pa dahil alam ko na di kukupas ang ngiti at saya, ang pagaasa ay hinding hindi mawawala at ang mga alaala ay habang buhay na makikintal sa alaala.
Marami pa sana akong gustong sabihin ngunit nahihirapan akong hanapin ang tamang mga salita upang ilarawan ang nais kong ilahad, kaya’t naghanda ako ng isang simpleng presentasyon. Ani nga nila “A picture is worth a thousand words” Sana’y magustuhan niyo ito at sana sa paraang ito mailahad na ang lahat ng ninanais ko na madakma niyo.
(Power point)
Estimated time: 8 minutes
“At the Beginning and I will Remember You
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SmurF bLoged oN Thursday, January 26, 2006
my hearT feeLs Like its beeN torN oFF froM my sysTems
aNd LiteraLLy torN into bits aNd bits oF pieceS
daMn it hurTs
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SmurF bLoged oN Wednesday, January 25, 2006
i finD myseLf
wakiNg up so earLy juSt to surF the nEt
minSan kse paGdating sa skuL
eH sLeep agaD
kaya no tiMe to do aNything
haiii
aYoko ganiTo
paraNg baLiktaD muNdo ko
aNyhu
i'm missiNg someOne so muCh rigHT now
bwisiT
nakaLimutaN namaN na kSe eH
oH aNd by the waY
saW the resuLts of ouR exaMs
tsk tsk hiraP ng taNga sa maTh (caLcu lng mataaS staT ko eh....woHHooo)
tsaka FiLipiNo
graBe
saNa bumaWi uNg oTher grades ko para....
ahhh basta
d na ako umaasa
pero
saNa saNa saNa
hmpH waTever haPpens
maY skuL na aKo!!!!!!!!!!!
wakiNg up so earLy juSt to surF the nEt
minSan kse paGdating sa skuL
eH sLeep agaD
kaya no tiMe to do aNything
haiii
aYoko ganiTo
paraNg baLiktaD muNdo ko
aNyhu
i'm missiNg someOne so muCh rigHT now
bwisiT
nakaLimutaN namaN na kSe eH
oH aNd by the waY
saW the resuLts of ouR exaMs
tsk tsk hiraP ng taNga sa maTh (caLcu lng mataaS staT ko eh....woHHooo)
tsaka FiLipiNo
graBe
saNa bumaWi uNg oTher grades ko para....
ahhh basta
d na ako umaasa
pero
saNa saNa saNa
hmpH waTever haPpens
maY skuL na aKo!!!!!!!!!!!
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SmurF bLoged oN Sunday, January 15, 2006
i waS kinda hopIng foR bio You scored as Theater. You should be a Theater major! Like a bohemian actress, you are seasoned and confident and not afraid to express yourself!
What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3) created with QuizFarm.com |
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SmurF bLoged oN Saturday, January 14, 2006
ExaMs namiN
aNd waT aM i doiN in froNT of the pC???
weLL
waS suppoSed to finiSh my pRojS
pEro
gumagana na namaN kataMaran ko
ngaun
i deciDed to updaTe na rin my bLog
haiiiii
i haD a dreaM
it is the greatEst dreaM i havE evEr haD
in my dreaM
i was tired
aND yeT there waS this force thaT wS puShing me to stiLL go to thE maLL
aS i waS waLking aLong the roW of stores, aLonE
i caMe to a haLt in fronT of this, sort of paraNg arCade pero hiNDe
uNg tipOng kids aT woRk
peRo LarGEr verSIon
anyhu
aS i waS staring aT the peOplE inSide the pLace
i noTiced thaT i knew the peOPLe inside
my kLaSmeyTs froM oLps
aS i waS juSt abouT to shouT
"hOYYyyyy"
i reaLized thaT soMEonE waS standiNg beSide me
it waS one oF my kLasmeYts froM oLps
i said hi....muSta???
then franCis arrived hystericaLLy saying
"aNjaN na siNa ramoN"
.....
PANIC
i didnT know what to do
so i raN for it
...stupid...
buT as i was reachiNg the top of the escalator
the urge that i had before kicked in again
it waS saying..."staY....waiT"
aNd
there he waS
he foLLowed me
though he was breathLess froM ruNning
he stiLL LooKed amaziNg
we taLked for a whiLe
sat on the bench
i waS beginning to feeL reaLLy tired
so i leaned towards hiM
restEd my heaD on hiS shouLders
he didnT push mE baCk
pheww
infaCt he begaN stroking my haiR
that waS the beSt part
there we were sitting down and juSt taLking
aNd yeT iT feLt aS if eveN everythiNg aNd everyOne waS righT in pLace
it waS as iF the worLd too was feeLing the feeLing that we shared
it was as iF tiMe stoPped aNd aLLowed thaT moment to Last for hoUrs, daYs, weekS,monThs and eveN yeaRs
it was juSt.....juSt....perfeCt
theN i toLd him
"tayo na baka makita pa tayo nila taLattaD aT mga kaibigaN mo"
"hayaaN mong makita niLa taU"
buT we enDed up waLking and winDow shoppinG
aNd wheN we goT tired
we sat down again
and then
then
nagiSing aKo
tsk tsk
nagreview aKo!!!
na nakangiTi
hehehe
haiii
sana nga maNgyari toH
sana saNa sana
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SmurF bLoged oN Monday, January 09, 2006
raNdoM piCs
na waLa Lng
triP ko Lng ipoST
me aNd my famiLy
twiNs pa kami ni aTe eH noH
mE aNd mika
aNg kyuT nya
kuLot kuLot
aKo waLa Lng
saNta cruZan nuNg baTa pa me
wid maNg LeaN
hihihihi
me aNd my famiLy
twiNs pa kami ni aTe eH noH
mE aNd mika
aNg kyuT nya
kuLot kuLot
aKo waLa Lng
saNta cruZan nuNg baTa pa me
wid maNg LeaN
hihihihi
aKo aT si aTe janina
kYut siNCe birTh
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SmurF bLoged oN Saturday, January 07, 2006
PASSED THE ATENEO ENTRANCE EXAM
CANT BELIEVE IT
CANT BELIEVE IT
i juSt finishEd eatiNg my breakfaSt
aNd waS aboUT to taKE a naP
when the phoNE raNg
iT waS chriStine
i wonDered why she caLLed
siNCe she wouLd juSt usuaLLy tXt me
hysTericaL aNd aLL
aT the top of her lungs said
"uii.nakapasa.tau.ateneo.kaw.ako.jess.maui.jose.grabe.ateneo.ka.na?"
derederetsyo pa tLaga yaN aH
swear
d na aTa sya makahinga sa kaSiyaHan
i knew she reaLLy wanted to go to aTeneo
buT hoW did i react
"ow...ok"
hehehe
didnT waNt to gEt my hopEs up
sinCe iT stiLL wasNt poSted in the neT
no LeTTEr yet
pEro aTe ciNdee saw iT daw siNCe she doEs go to the saiD skuL
so
aKo naMan
"ow...papatingnaN ko nga kaY aTE"
hehehe
taLk abouT being a gOOd frienD
d ba daW paniwaLaan
hehehe
ayaW ko kSe tLaga umaSa taS aLa paLa
so txted my aTe to go aNd chEck
sinCe her skuL is juSt righT beSide aTeneo
buT nooooo
she Sends kuya jj, her boyfriEnd
shuckS
kakahiya
tnx kuya
so in the afterNoon
kuya jj txted me
"did you know you passed in ateneo? A for accepted, bs es is the course"
reaction ko???
"oww....ok"
hehehe
i aM gLad thaT i paSsed
iTs juSt thaT i canT express it thaT muCh
juSt suPer gLad na
MAY FUTURE NA KO!!!!!
hehehe
random quiZzes
Which CSI Character are you? (Pics)
Greg Sanders
Well, here's a fine how-do-you-do. This guy is an excellent do-er... not a good person to just stand and watch. If there's a job to be done, you do it before most people even know it existed. Chances are you are also something of a go-getter and very driven when it comes to success. Just don't let it consume you- keep up with the rest of the world, but live a life that is pleasing a meaningful to you.
What does your birth month reveal about you?
August
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless.Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends .
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SmurF bLoged oN Thursday, January 05, 2006
weLL
it waS decEmBer
anD it didNT feeL muCh LikE deCemBer
kSe foR onE thiNg no XmaS breaK
you couLdnt notiCe that it waS coLd siNCe praCtice fieLd deMO
(aS iF naMan nainitaN ako....har har)
hmmm
maraMi naNgyari
pEro noNe worTH reMemBeriNg
it waS decEmBer
anD it didNT feeL muCh LikE deCemBer
kSe foR onE thiNg no XmaS breaK
you couLdnt notiCe that it waS coLd siNCe praCtice fieLd deMO
(aS iF naMan nainitaN ako....har har)
hmmm
maraMi naNgyari
pEro noNe worTH reMemBeriNg
bSta haNggang 23 maY paSok kamI
ouR vacatioN waS onLy for 2 daYs
you couLdnt aCtuaLLy coNsider it aS vacatioN
siNCe 24 and 25 waS on a weeKeND
(and theY caLL iT xmaS breaK???)
habaNg naGeenJoy aNd lahaT LahaT na maGbakaSyoN
we were aLL worKinG ouR buTts ouT LikE iGOr
....
weLL aTLeaSt i knoW i diD
aNg guLiBLe ko kse
kuNg sinabi na maY kLase
dadaLa ko LahaT gamiT ko
onLy to fiND ouT
prakTis Lng pLa
tsk tsk
bwiSit
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waS ouR xmaS parteee
waSnt muCh fuN
woRe thIS bubBLE skirT thaT my SisTEr bouGht foR me
thoUgh agaiNsT my wiLL
siNCe i thouGht it waS too shOrT
i woRe iT
cuTe namaN daW
so
heLL i care
hehehe kiDding
iT waSnT muCh of a pArtee
siNCe we spEnt it ouTsiDe the audi
took us haLf of the mORning to geT reaDy
soMe parts haD to be repeaTed
siNce otherS wer too far
aND siSter doubTed if the were into the fesTivitiEs
sO by the tiME we goT on with the proGraM
guTom na LahaT!!!
so we aTe
goDdaMmiT bitin
aFter the muCh proTest thaT i diD
about oNe biLAo of maLaboN and panCiT wonT be enouGh
i waS proVen to be rigHT
sinCe by the eNd oF the fuD getting
noNE waS Left foR ouR cLaSs preS
aNd to think ininvyt pa namin teaCHers
tsk tsk
so we aTe LittLe
waS so yagiT LooKing as we starEd at the oThers tabLe
aNd begged for sOme
seryoSo toH
kawawa kami
weLL ok Lng
haD fuN na rin
jEss tiN aNd i distribuTEd oUR giFts to teaChers
anD theY Liked it
so bawi poinTs kami
har har
aNyhu
speNt thaT weekeNd in maNiLa
wiTh my famiLy
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whiLe theY taLked aboUt theiR "to Do's"
thiS xmaS breaK
i waS ForCed to ListEn
haiiii....
sOoOO
natuLoG akO
aND wHEn i woKE uP
paSko na pLa
majoR migraNe
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aS ouR famiLy traDiTion
the Tito's aND tita's wouLd siT on a chair
(the mOSt coMfortabLe one preferabLy)
to haNd ouT our pamaSkos
whiLe we, the pamangkins anD inaanaKs anD aPos, wouLd LiNE uP
at LahaT na ng kadugaSan sa muNdo ay mawiwitnEss d2
cuTTing in LinE
LiNing uP agaiN
pretenDing to be aN inaaNak
at marami paNg iba
weLL
kaunTi Lng nakuha ko thiS yeaR
buT it diDnt maTTer to me thoUgh
i juSt waNted to Enjoi everY momEnt of that xmaS
afTEr thaT we oPened giFts
tHEn in the eveniNg
weNt to my cuZzinS pLace
videoKe
pIC piC with te ja and ate shie
taS pinaNood ko maG puSoy cuzZins ko
taS sumakiT na naMan uLo
tsk tsk
gotta get it checKed
waLa na aTa LamaN
har har
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we haD cLasseS
buT aS aNy tamaD cuTe LooKing fiLipina woULd do
hihihi
i diDnt go
for oNE thiNg i didNT wanT to makE byahE oN xmaS daY nOh
so
un
un na un
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exactoNg kararatiNg Lng namin
haD to movE faSt
since ppasoK pa ko
weNt to maSs in my gaLa
siNCe maGooFFer kami
thEy saId i LooKed LiKE a kinDer reaDy foR graduatioN
tsk tsk
ok lng
pareho kami ni kat
hehehehe
graBe
thE onE we had to oFFer waS so hoT
aS in
soBRa
to the max
you gEt the poinT
taS we were aSk to be coLLectoRs
bwisiT na heLLo kiTTy
sabi ibigaY namin sa mga nuNs
d paLa dpaT
napaawaY pa aKo sa iSa sa kaniLa
tsk tsk
weLL aFter the maSs
i sLepT na aT hoMe
whoLe aFternoOn
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fiELD deMo
couLdnT beLievE St paUL
rain oR shiNE
puSh throuGh pariN sa LahaT ng actiVitiEs
grabE
haD oUR fieLd deMo
pasamaSid
sinCe nOn fiELd kami ni jEss
naGbasa Lng kami
(how we Got the part:
nung naLamaN na namin poSitionS namin
deretSyo kami agaD ser Rob
"ser caN we be the oNEs to reaD during the paSamasiD"
woohooo
ouR kakapaLan paid oFF)
waLang siLent driLL
firSt tym in History
in thE aftErnOOn
sLepT uLiT
in the evenIng weNt to waTch SouND of muSic
wiTh aTE ja
*yawwwnnnnnn*
aFter barry aNd eLdon's parts
we Left na
we weNt to caFe uNo
wiTh aTe macy aNd aTe barbie
kain
gLug gLug
chiSmis
then wenT hoMe
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waTched circuS aT skuL
*yawwwnnnnn*
wenT home riN agaD
to geT reaDy for the fasHion shOW
w/c was
*yawwwwwnnnn*
didnT expEct it to be thaT Long
kse namaN noH
1 ouTfiT
3 timEs na LaLabaS
suReLy 2 wud be enouGh
so uN
baSicaLLy
everything that i thought woUld haPpen duRing the CenteniaL cLosing
diDnt
boohooo
ngauN januaRy na
new yeaR spEnt in maniLa
bakaSyon namin
waLa kaming kasabaY siNce LahaT maY paSok na
kami kami na nga Lng maG gagaLa
tSk tSk
....SiGn ouT....
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